Hey,

Welcome to Day 14 of BLOGMAS!!

In 10 days I will have completed Blogmas 2015! I thought today, as I haven't done much I thought I'd touch on something that's been on my thoughts lately, in the hopes that one of you reading can relate and I can get it out of my system!

Being/feeling left out.

I can tell you I'm probably one of the best people to know about this! My worst story of being left out dates back to 2011, when my supposed group of friends made up an elaborate scheme because they didn't want me at their birthday party. They literally all five of them made up "Pony Club" and said that it was a horse riding thing and they invited each other, it made zero sense and I vividly remember asking one of the girls saying that I know it's not real and she could just tell me the truth, she lied again, and when I saw the photos of them on Facebook my heart broke.

And now, when I was at a different school to all of my friends naturally I was left out, and when people began not replying when I tried contact, and just not bothering I felt like I wasn't worth it. The thing about friendships is it hurts more when a friend betrays you then when an enemy does.

To tell the truth, I'm scared. I'm scared that friends are going to hurt me again, and when people and I make plans and I find out they cancelled to hang out with someone else ? It just hurts. Having social anxiety honestly doesn't make anything any easier and I feel like even though I do have social anxiety and I am sensitive it doesn't mean that my feelings aren't valid.

I just feel like there's only so many times a person can get let down, and I want to be happy and have a good time with people instead of feeling like I'm second best, like there's other people they'd rather hang out with over me.

Oof. I'm just a little sad right now, and I'm over feeling like no one cares!! The fact that when people invite a group of people to hang out its always me that isn't involved, unless I'm the organiser. This is super first world problems and I probably sound woeful and silly I just needed to get that out!



So after I wrote that, as you can tell I wasn't in the best mood. Luckily the easiest way to pull me out of a sad mood where I'm wallowing in everything wrong, is to focus on the good. I called my friend Anya, who totally got what I was on about and we talked for an hour. I hung up (really my phone died so we called it a day!) feeling eleven thousand times lighter. I think when you're feeling down the best thing to do is to talk to someone, anyone!

Anyway, today I opened the 14th door of my advent calendar and it was a foot cream! Again, another great product for winter.

 This is from my festive evening in watching Once Upon A Time!


I am obsessed with this Peach and Pineapple tea! The fact I can brew it cold makes it the easiest tea in the world, and I'm loving it during these hot days.
 I painted my nails in Tanya Burr Cosmetics, FairyGodmother and I'm in love with it.

We did a massive clean up yesterday and my mother found my sunglasses from two years ago and my ones I bought for my birthday. You have no idea how weird it is to find things again after like a year of them being lost!


The rest of today was spent on picmonkey doing my christmas cards! I think they're so festive and cute, and picmonkey is what I use for my opening images on my blog posts. Dad and I had an intense game of Rummikub and I snuggled up for the night watching Nightmare Before Christmas.

Sorry that I didn't do much today! This week is looking up though, and I hope you've had an awesome December so far.

See you tomorrow.

Love,
Georgia Maree xx

He who has not Christmas in his heart will never find it under a tree.

– Roy L. Smith