Dear Skye,
I am starting a new series on my blog called Dear Skye. I guess it's some what along the lines of 'Good Luck Charlie' but with bigger topics about Puberty and Teenagehood.
So, part of being a stereotypical teenager is partying, drinking, smoking, and in general doing dumb stuff.
I am not a stereotypical teenager. And because of this I have to deal with pressure from others to be a stereotypical teenager. That sucks, because making your own decisions is a crucial part of growing up, and learning that people don't always respect these decisions goes along with that.
I have an older brother, we are 14 months and 15 days apart. I love him to death, and he's made these decisions to be stereotypical. And to be honest, it hurts. It hurts seeing your loved one put themselves in harms way because they think it's cool. I am extremely empathetic and I had a panic attack at my oldest cousins 21st party, because he was drinking doing some kegstand or something, I freaked out. I felt in danger because they were putting themselves in danger.
I know that alcohol isn't this great big scary thing to some people, but to me it really is.
Worse than that is smoking. My Nana died because of smoking and to see a loved one consciously do that breaks my heart. I've read all the stories about teenagers drinking heaps and going into comas or passing away, and for an anxious introverted little sister nothing is more frightening.
If it was up to me I would bundle up everyone I love into little blankets so they could never have to deal with the world, or that I wouldn't have to deal with the repercussions to their actions. But it's not up to me, and I can't do that.
All I can do is stand there and watch them possibly destroy themselves. Because I am so maternal, my brother has taken to saying "You're not my mum!" Which I know, because our mother is extremely wise about this. She still reprimands him for this, but she doesn't get crazy emotional like I do. She is really good at dealing with things, and I'm lucky to have such a strong woman in my life.
So, I don't know what I'm going to do as he gets older and not underage, when he goes to university, there's nothing I can do to change his mind, I can only look at him in disgust so many times. I'm not really disgusted by him, I guess I'm more dissappointed. This is someone I have looked up to my entire life and even at the age of 3, I punched a boy who was bullying him. But what I can't punch is alcohol. And I have to deal with that.
Thanks for reading! Sorry if this was a little over the place, Just some of my thoughts about teenagehood and my new series Dear Skye!
Love,
Georgia Maree xx
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