Hey.
I had an incredibly low point in 2014. I was sick with tonsillitis every month until I got them out in November, I couldn't go to school because of my anxiety, I had the most awful fight with some girls and they were posting about it on social media. I pulled out of my high school this year, and I had to tell my friends that I have anxiety. My mother and I fought heaps, and she kept seeing it as all her fault. I didn't talk to two of my close friends for two months, because sometimes I get things twisted and dream things out of proportion.
For a while I sat in my room listening to my sad playlist on spotify, blankly staring at the wall. I think that was the closest I've ever been to depression. But I had a feeling, if this was rock bottom nothing can get worse. And it didn't. I went to therapy, and I still go now, but less frequently. My therapist has taught me so much about myself, and about life, really.
I would say September, when I started this blog was the turning point.
I went away to my grandparents for 3 weeks in October, and when I came back home the entire atmosphere of my home had changed.
I felt lighter, and more like myself again, and I didn't really feel like hiding away in my bedroom anymore. I got my tonsils whipped out in November, and then we got our bunnies.
Having a house rabbit is seriously the most fun and uplifting thing in the world, Luna is a source of joy, and she brings alot of fluffy snuggles and goodness into my life everyday.
The point is, 2014 had some really sucky awful moments, but it also brought happiness and lessons. I learnt more about myself in 2014 than I ever have. I am incredibly lucky to be living in New Zealand, where I'm not looked down upon because I am a woman and I am proud of NZ for being one of the first countries for Women's rights, and one of the first to make gay marriage legal in our country. I'm lucky because I have a family that loves me, and amazing friends. Shoutout to Abi, Madi, Anya, Zoe, Hayley, Caitlin, Libby, Rose, and Liv.
It's now time to leave all of the bad things that happened in 2014 behind, because it's already 2015. "Don't look back you're not going that way."
Thank you for reading, I hope someone enjoyed this, and it wasn't too serious and sad! I hope you have a 2015 filled with joy and bubbles. (Bubbles because you're never too old for bubbles.) xx
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