Hey,
So!! I have been home schooled (correspondence really) for exactly a year. I've only just started at my new school, which all things considered is going pretty well.
It's incredibly terrifying to go to a new school, then add on that I'm starting half way through the year (classic Georgia!), have anxiety and I didn't know anyone (or so I thought !) People say that the hardest day is the first day, but for me it's always the second day. The first day you know you're starting, but the second day was just very hard to get up and go to.
I've been asked heaps why I decided to go from full correspondence at home, back to face to face school, and my answer is usually 'I dont know, I felt it was the right thing to do'. The true reason is to do with someone who I have never met. Malala Yousafzai.
Malala was living in Pakistan, and because of the Taliban, she and other girls were unable to go to school. Malala blogged about her experiences for the BBC and then in October of 2012, Malala was shot in the head on a school bus. She recovered and used the experience for the good of everyone. Her actions and bravery led to Pakistans first Right To Education Bill, She is the youngest ever Nobel Peace Prize Winner. Malala has inspired millions, and that includes myself.
I thought about how lucky I am to not have to fight for an education, and I wasn't really working as hard as I could with correspondence. Things that we take for granted, others don't have or are lucky to have a tiny bit. It was the right time (I mean, mentally... I would not recommend starting in the middle of years like I ALWAYS do..)
'Be a warrior not a worrier' - a phrase that I picked up. For me, I sit and think, if I died tomorrow (slightly morbid I know) how would I want the people around me to describe me? I'd want to be described as the girl who when life sucked, she kicked butt. So, here I am kicking school's butt! However that isn't to say that home schooled people can't kick butt of course!
I want to finish school in year 13, and know that sometimes it was really hard, but I did it, and I was able to get back up and be proud of myself.
Anxiety wise, it's been very hard! A crucial part of Anxiety is avoidance, and I have a little voice in my head telling me to stay home, the longer you stay off the harder it is to come back. It's really a daily mental war with myself and a lot of that is beating myself up mentally. That little voice will never go away, but it does get quieter, and with so many people in my life that love me and so much I'm grateful for it gets down to a whisper.
However hard it may be, you can do it, because I did it! And I'm doing it.
Thanks for reading! I hope you can take something from this, and for Jemma-Rose I know next year you're going to be awesome.
Love,
Georgia Maree xx
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